I am in week 2 of the book Praying the Names of GOd by Ann Spangler (2004). My study this past week was on El Roi.
The term El ROI is only used one time in the Bible, Genesis 16:13. However, there are many references to GOD seeing or looking upon the people of the earth.
Since I was in 5th grade, I have struggled with a sense of not being seen. I wasn’t the pretty girl or the smart girl, only the girl with the never quirky sarcastic sense of humor.
Following the falls of life, I even began to struggle with the fact that I didn’t think people could look at me without seeing my physical scars.
It was so bad at one point, that I went 2 years where I would weep every time I looked in a mirror.
What did it matter, though, I thought. I’m nothing of significance. Why should anyone see me?
I began to pull farther and farther away from others and isolated myself from most anyone I could.
HE found me in my desert
December of 2014, I found myself laying face down in the carpet of my new apartment crying.
I was ready to give up. I’ll be honest. I had just come through a divorce, and was struggling with trying to learn a new town and a new job. It was overwhelming. Add to that the fact that I was not on speaking terms with my family and only had my sons on the weekends. Depression was smack in my face.
I got up the next morning, which was a Sunday. I was attending a large local church, where I thought I could simply exist and just be invisible.
I sat in the large sanctuary, filled with people, feeling the most alone that I ever had.
Then.. GOD. During the sermon that morning, the Pastor spoke on 1 Samuel 16:7b
..GOD sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.
Growing up in church, I know I had to have heard that verse many times before. The HOLY SPIRIT used it that particular December Sunday morning to make me realize that I wasn’t invisible.. that GOD sees me. HE doesn’t just look at my scars or lack of worldly beauty and turn His Holy head. He looks upon my heart, and sees me for me.
Let us see Others
We may not want to admit it, but we do tend to show preference for people based on their appearances. The well dressed woman will get greeted first. The handsome guy will get picked first.
Can we stop today & just try to see others as GOD does? Can we take the time to treat people with the value that GOD does- to see them for more than their outer appearance?